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20 December 2018
0003 Hours
UPM

A Reflection.

Hi. I believe this is my first posting for this year. A year already have gone and now I’m in my 3^r year animal science studies. 2018. A year of everything to me. Everything that happened throughout this year really gives an impact towards me.

Do you ever once heard that a little thing that happened could somehow affect your life. It might not as soon as possible but could come later. The point is all the memories I get is memorable even it is a small thing.

2018.

I still remember how fucked up I am with the MTM board session. It’s quite a though job for me after becoming an ‘anti-MTM’ and yeah 2018, I stood in that position. I know it’s weird but 2017 teach me something that bad things doesn’t always mean bad. It sometimes gives you something positive. Leaving every single fucking bad memories during the foundation and I tried to bear with the position given. Working in a team again after 2 years gives me nostalgia. MTM taught me teamwork, communication, how to fucking lead your team, betrayal and everything. A committee doesn’t always mean a good thing but that’s the reality I need to go through. After all, the one you see as a bad vibe would eventually come to be the one, you’ll need in your future life later.

2018.

Almost 1 year since I’m with Exprimo. A courier service company based in UPM. Starting as assistant admin during Feb 2017 and now as the Manager. A tough journey especially when it comes to the team. Team members would come and go. Everyone has their own style, uniqueness and skills. But yeah after several changes in team, I’m still there. I learn how commitment and people are related. Lack of passion also listed in my 2018 album.

I don’t deny that some people would feel tired doing the same shit again and again and yeah, they need a stop or something that can ‘cure’ it.

I don’t deny that I feel sad every time someone said that I’m not fit enough or I just can’t go with this anymore and then they left.

There’s some time that there are 2 members left only in the team and yeah, it’s a fucking moment of my life. I admit that I somehow lost my passion towards Exprimo but when I see the other team member tried his best to bring back the Exprimo on the right track, I feel I’m wrong, because I just have the thought of leaving but the other people are fighting hard for it.

From that moment, I know everything that’s gone would somehow will be replaced. God knows better than us, right? New team and new aim, I hope 2019 would bring a great thing for Exprimo. I really wish for that.

2018.

A year of feelings.

Have you ever felt useless when you can’t do something to help someone?

Have you ever felt how does it feel to lose a friend?

Have you ever felt why your life is so fucked up?

Yeah, I feel every of each. To be worse I got something that can worsen my mental health and yes, it is another thing that I’m trying to cure it. But, hearing positive thoughts and comments from the other people makes me realized that I should be grateful because at least some people care to say that to me. I feel blessed.

2018.

I got many more to say but yeah, I guess I would keep it for the next year. Till we meet again.

/playing Happen Ending – Epik High ft Joe Won/