Asper? Asasi Sains Pertanian?

26 November 2016
2148 Hrs
College 14th UPM

Hi guys, we meet again, 2 weeks right now, i have been in dilemma lol (did i spell it right?) 

There's a day, i felt fvcking moody, not a kind of serious problem but....for few days, i felt something is empty. An empty thing inside me. I kept thinking about it everyday. Do you know what? When you tried to figure what is it but still you can't get it.....it really makes you crazy....

Yes. I've been in the situation above. As i mentioned earlier, the 'empty' thing inside me kept making my day as a student.... miserable...stress...and all of things that comes after that.

After a few days, i finally figured it out.....the thing that 'questioned' me for every single day is....Him.

i have no idea that, every single day, every breath i have taken and everything that i have done to worship Him as my Creator is just by physical. There's no spiritual or what we call in Malay, 'kusyhuk' or giving a full concentration towards the Almighty by forgetting the job, assignment or anything that relates to the world.

I also realises that, i rarely told Him my problems. The usual thing that i do when i had problems are by telling it to a friend or post it on the Twitter or just kept it by myself. Those things are always become my primary choice.

I asked my sis regarding this and she posted me this,

Someday , Kita akan reach this breaking point

Rasa tak tenang

Rasa incomplete

Rasa tergantung

Rasa mcm we really really need something , but we dont know what is it

Rasa kosong , 

Rasa hopeless

" Kenapa aku diciptakan ? "

" Apa yg aku nak sebenarnya "

" I am really alone , is there ever anyone who still love me ? "

Bro , Sis

Sujudlah , Sujudlah , Sujudlah

Itu je

Kadang-kadang kita tak sedar , kita tak melakukan dosa besar pun , kita tak melakukan maksiat besar pun , tapi mungkin kita terikat dgn dosa-dosa kecil

Bila buat dosa kecil , hati berlari-lari kecil meninggalkan Allah , larian-larian kecil inilah yg kita tak sedar

Larian yg menjauh dari Allah . Sampai suatu masa , sebenarnya larian kecil ni dah menjadi jarak yg sangat jauh dari Allah .

Hati tak tenang , sebab maksiat yg berterusan

Hati tak tenang , sebab amalan yg ditinggalkan

Besarnya kasih sayang Allah .Bila hambaNya menjauh , Dia terus memanggil

Sebelum ni , kita dalam tarbiah sekolah

Pagi dan petang , kita amalkan mathurat

Sebelum tidur , kita amalkan Al-mulk

Sebelum subuh , kita amalkan qiamulail

Sebelum zohor , kita amalkan dhuha

Tapi , mungkin disebabkan oleh kesibukan assignment , kerja sekolah , or apa-apa activity society , kita tinggal amalan ni

Sebenarnya amalan² ni laa yg mendekatkan , amalan² ni laa yg menenangkan . 

Bahkan dia dah stated jelas dalam Quran .

" Sesungguhnya hanya dengan mengingati Allah hati akan menjadi tenang "

[ 13:28 ]

Tuhan bukan dia meninggalkan

Dia hanya mendekatkan , Sampaian rindu agar hambaNya merintih , Sampaian rindu agar hambaNya kembali

Kita berjarak sedikit , terus Dia panggil

Kita lalai sedikit , terus Dia menyentuh

Allah missed you . Get back to

Qiamullail , Solat Sunat dua rakaat . 

Nak nangis , nangislah

Nak mengadu kat Allah cakap dunia ni penat , 

Mengadulah

Allah would raise your burden

Wallahi

Level ni

Allah hadirkan rasa rindu kita pada Dia , sampai buat kita menangis . Serious

Fa'inni Qaribbb 😭😞😞

Moga Allah berkati kehidupan kita semua selama ini.

The quote giving me tons of punches to my Heart. Yeah, we done everything to fulfil our life...everything...BUT...we forgot about Him...all our days passed by without...we asking or more accurately thanking Him for our life.

I guess a change need to be done. But still i can't get away from the sins. Wish me luck.

where did i take this? lol